So I've been thinking for quite awhile about going back to the low carb lifestyle. I did it successfully 6 years ago. I spent a little over a year losing 115 pounds, 1 year maintaining it, 2 years gaining it back. I'm currently less than 10 pounds from my highest weight and it's gotten to the point that I need to do something about it. So this is where i'm at.

I read a lot of blogs, both about weight loss and about staying fat and being happy with who you are. I understand both points of few, however, being fat, i'm not happy with who I am. I'm not happy with the fact that it's getting hard to find clothes. I'm not happy with the fact that my knees are starting to hurt. I'm also not happy with the fact that when I sit for an extended period of time, I can hardly move when I get up. Something needs to change.

While thinking about this, I realized that if my house had gotten in this bad of shape, I'd do everything I could to fix it up. If one of my dogs or my husband was having problems, I would do everything I could to help them, why not help me? I don't understand why my feelings and needs always seem to come in last in my life. So i'm going to learn to put myself first. I've done it before, I can do it again. When I lost weight last time, I found a shirt that said "It's all about me". It had never been all about me before and as soon as it no longer became all about me, I started gaining the weight back. So i'll be digging out my t-shirt again tonight.