I've realized after posting a few times that my life is very boring. I do take some fun trips, but 90% of the time its the same thing, day in and day out. Work, JC's, cleaning, cooking, laundry. That's about it.

I did actually make an appointment with another dr. for next week. Trying to figure out if I can get my female problems taken care of. I'm praying a hysterectomy is not the end result. I don't know how I've made it to 36 years old and never had surgery or been put under of even have an IV for that matter, but I hate to break my record. Plus i'm terrified! We'll see what she says next Thursday.

Well, Catherines in Madison had nothing, completely nothing. No capri's in the 17 inch, no spring jackets, nothing. I couldn't believe it. I guess i'll just have to order online what I want and then take it to the store to return it if it doesn't work out. I hate paying that return shipping on stuff that doesn't fit.

We went to both Trader Joe's and Whole Foods. We got a few things. Dh & I both thought they were a little pricey, especially Whole Foods. We've been to other's before and they've always been expensive. We didn't buy much at WH, but spent about $60 at TJ's. I'm having almond butter for the first time with flax seed in it. It definitely has a different taste. I was a little surprised about the amount of processed food. I guess I was thinking it would mainly be fresh stuff, but it wasn't. Just like a regular grocery store, but with organic processed food instead. I doubt we'd drive back up just for that.

The one good thing i did find was sweet potato fries at both WF and TJ's. Where I live, no one sells them. So I grabbed three bags of them. Although Dh says to me on the way home, couldn't you just buy sweet potatoes and cut them up? Ahh.. yeah, I could, and probably should. I will after these bags are gone.

Friday night and I'm exhausted. We went out and celebrated my nephew's 21st birthday tonight. Dinner first and then off to the casino. I promptly lost $50 playing blackjack. Dh thankfully only lost $13 so the damage wasn't as bad as it could be.

We have 3 appointments tomorrow and then Sunday we are off to Catherines, Trader Joe's and Whole Foods. Can't wait! I have a whole list of things I want at Catherines and TJ's. Just a couple of things at Whole Foods. We'll need to see how big the store is.

Food today wasn't that great, taste wise and healthiness wise.

I just realized this morning that I hadn't written anything yesterday. Not to much has been happening with us. Just work, work, work. This is the busy time of year for us and will be busy now through November or so. December & January are our slow time. Maybe I should plan a vacation for next January. The only problem is my DH hates to fly, so we always end up driving and he hates driving if the weather is bad. January in Iowa almost always equals bad weather.

Well, we are going ahead with the fence. The 3/4 acre back yard we have will be completely fenced in, in a couple of weeks. I'm so excited. It will be nice to let the dogs out the backyard and not have to worry about them leaving the yard at all. It will be 5 feet high, so I don't think Buff will be tempted to try to jump out. It will also keep the neighborhood kids out of our yard. It's not that I dislike kids, I just don't like them. Just kidding! I just don't like them taunting our dogs and trying to get them out of the yard. We also ordered the windows for our back porch. We are well on the way to having our little sun porch back there. I need to find a comfy chair to put out there. I haven't liked anything I've found at Menard's so now I need to branch out and look other places.

I did make a decision this morning. I'm no longer ordering clothes online. Catherines is about the only store that has clothing in my size that I think has good quality. I've ordered from several different places online and while the shirts usually fit, sometimes the fabric is goofy. Good example would be the 4 t-shirts I ordered and tried on last night. If the 5, I only kept three. They were all exactly the same size and brand, just different colors. But two of them were a funky material so they got returned. With pants, no matter how much I go by their size charts, they never fit. So no more ordering online. I will just have to make the trip to Davenport every time I need clothes. I'm trying to figure out when DH & I will be able to go. I need a few things for spring and a new spring jacket.

I have FOLLOWERS! OMG!

Ok, so tonight i'm feeling like a complete and total failure. Why is it that I can be an intelligent 36 year old woman with a great husband, a successful business, the ability to travel when I want, debt free and very happy with my life other than the feeling that i'm not supposed to weigh this much!! Why is my weight the one thing I can't overcome??

I cannot stick to low carb eating for the life of me. I can do most anything else in life, but not that. I can convince people to spend multiple thousands of dollars on the products we sell, I can plan great vacations, I have excelled at every volunteer position I've ever held, even winning awards, but I can't freaking stick to a diet and lose weight. And I hate the fact that it's such a big deal and that I feel like such a failure for it.

On a good note, I did book all the hotels for my May trip to NC & SC. I'm so looking forward to it. Now I need to figure out what were going to do for the 2.5 days we'll be in Raleigh. I know my friend Jen won't be able to spend the whole time with us, but i'm sure mom and I will find plenty to do. I'm also excited to spend a day at the Biltmore Estate. I downloaded a bunch of podcasts that talk about it. I figure we will listen to them on the way down while were driving.

DH & I went to a friends house for dinner last night. She made pasta with sauce, garlic cheese bread and peach cobbler with ice cream. CARBS! I couldn't believe it.

Better this morning. Breakfast was carrots and dip, cheese & salami. Part of the problem is i'm already getting bored of what to eat. I also hate having to plan our meals out. I also hate being fat, so I guess that's the trade off.

While we were gone last night, our two labs ripped apart one of DH's flannel shirts. He left it on the couch which is partially his fault, but definitely were upset with them. We can't have any blankets or towels in the living room now because they will destroy them while were gone.

List of reasons I must stay on low carb.

1. Keep my blood sugar low.

2. Need the energy.

3. Feel so much better when i'm not eating sugar/flour.

4. Lose weight.

5. Skin is clearer.

6. Joints move easier.

7. Less moody.

8. Get my monthly cycle back in order.

That's all I can come up with right now. I'm sure i'll have more later.